I am reminded by many around me that my focus is not where it should be. I am too dependent on my own understanding of how things should be, well rather how I think things should be at this stage in my life. I must finally admit that Isaac is indeed a miracle and blessing from my Heavenly Father and also a lesson at the same time. I would be a fool not to accept this. From my mother, to my sister, to the speakers in church; God uses them all to send me a message, He is snapping His fingers in my face. HELLO, daughter...listen. And I am listening.
Jacob 2:18-19: "But before ye seek for riches, seek ye for the kingdom of God. And after ye have obtained a hope in Christ, ye shall obtain riches, if ye seek them; and ye will seek them for the intent to do good, to clothe the naked, and to feed the hungry, and to liberate the captive, and administer relief to the sick and the afflicted."
I would love to have more children. Isaac fills my heart and I love the spirit he brings into our home; he lights up my world and I can only imagine what a house full of children would be like. And while my desire is righteous, my focus is still selfish...I haven't put God first and I do believe that our future depends on the readiness that we the chosen mothers possess. The world is falling rapidly into a secular, more carnal state, perishing under the basest of our manly natures. Instant gratification...immediate satisfaction. No thought to our eternal, immortal potential. Even devout Christians fall into the "trends" the fads. Bling bling. The hottest item. The new thing. The latest fashion. The upgrades. The rad video games. All of it will mean nothing in the next life. In the next stages of our growth. We are leaving behind good values...and forgetting God in our lives.
I believe I will be mother to many children but all in good time. I need to seek after the righteousness of the Lord and have Faith that He will listen to my righteous desires once I have proven that I am ready to be more selfless. To strengthen my Spirit because I have a feeling those who are coming down to earth are going to be some very special people and I am responsible for guiding them. And how can I guide them when I don't follow the beacons the Lord places in my life? Yes, I think I need to re-focus.
Jacob 2:18-19: "But before ye seek for riches, seek ye for the kingdom of God. And after ye have obtained a hope in Christ, ye shall obtain riches, if ye seek them; and ye will seek them for the intent to do good, to clothe the naked, and to feed the hungry, and to liberate the captive, and administer relief to the sick and the afflicted."
I would love to have more children. Isaac fills my heart and I love the spirit he brings into our home; he lights up my world and I can only imagine what a house full of children would be like. And while my desire is righteous, my focus is still selfish...I haven't put God first and I do believe that our future depends on the readiness that we the chosen mothers possess. The world is falling rapidly into a secular, more carnal state, perishing under the basest of our manly natures. Instant gratification...immediate satisfaction. No thought to our eternal, immortal potential. Even devout Christians fall into the "trends" the fads. Bling bling. The hottest item. The new thing. The latest fashion. The upgrades. The rad video games. All of it will mean nothing in the next life. In the next stages of our growth. We are leaving behind good values...and forgetting God in our lives.
I believe I will be mother to many children but all in good time. I need to seek after the righteousness of the Lord and have Faith that He will listen to my righteous desires once I have proven that I am ready to be more selfless. To strengthen my Spirit because I have a feeling those who are coming down to earth are going to be some very special people and I am responsible for guiding them. And how can I guide them when I don't follow the beacons the Lord places in my life? Yes, I think I need to re-focus.
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