Challenges

So I posted this blog in the spring: Demons. Essentially, it was about a near encounter with a person that I don't trust, a person that makes my stomach turn. Too much pain connected with her. Too many bad memories. Not anything personal against her (really); I just don't react the right way around her. Like I literally (no joke or figure of speech) feel my heart rate increase; my blood pressure rises, and I can feel all my hairs stand on edge. It's like my body is warning me of danger. It could be just because her presence reminds me of that horrible night. It's been five years and her presence is the only one that makes my body feel like it's still in shock. Do I need to see someone for this? I feel like she's a bad omen.

Well I've almost run into her twice this month. Really? Does it have to be this month? Is the universe/fate/destiny or whatever it is trying to tell me something? Ugh. It was super close the other night. The night I went to see Breaking Dawn...she was in the same theater...not right in front of me but I had a clear view of her. Breeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeathe.....Sabrina. Just breathe. And I almost exploded in violence when my brother told me to calm down. I think some expletives had escaped me. Aye! I need to just face her and let my body react as it will and learn how to finally control whatever it is that is making me react this way.